feeling abit lazy and grouchy to study.i know there's a test tmr.but you know after so many tests and projs these couple of weeks,ive grown immune to stuyding.it has practically turned me into some sort of nerd.
school.home.online shopping.projects.tests.late night studying.sleep.
my hp bill just arrived.which means i got to stop buying stuff for the time being.it sucks so much cos its the joyous season and everyone should be doing some crazy shopping.and that includes me.haha...
in need of some form of entertainment.its getting really boring to stay home everyday.big sigh.i hope i will be going out this weekend.
eh best friend.no worries about last sun.ur mum says she got to carry two then heavy already.haha... =) thanks so much for it k.if new year that period im free,then i go down to your place to help your mum make dunno what k.aiyah, tt time she told me den i forget alr.lols.you get more rest k.take care. <3
;8:27:00 PM
Monday, November 28, 2005
school is really tiring me out.to hell with eye bags or panda eyes.i was really damn tired.was procrastinating between taking a short nap in the evening or sleeping earlier tonight.in the end, i gave in and went to sleep from 8 to 9pm.haha...cos i was thinking of the endless work which need to be done urgently,if i dun take a nap,i'll be way too tired to do any work in the evening/night as well. so decided to take a rest.but now,im still tired.my eyes are closing yet writing an entry now.meaningless huh.
;11:33:00 PM
Sunday, November 27, 2005
taking a break from all the crazy studying.after tmr,it will still continue to be another round of mugging.damn! its not even the exams now and we are all stucked at home reading our day away.geez! this is driving me crazy.true enough,its supposed to be the joyful period now, with christmas coming, holidays, etc.but im right here at home,studying my time away.i seemed to grow really boring.haven step into town for quite some time.i hope next week will be good. =) pray hard.
many thanks to ahem,my best friend and others who have been constantly encouraging and cheering me on through this stupid journey.the past 2 weeks were pretty much stressful for me. esp ahem.helping me complete my ne article over the last weekend,i knew i could count on him for help.especially when it comes to doing work,cos he seriously needs it.lols.something to keep his brain working,its rotting ever since the start of army.
and i had dinner with him just now.more like he was accompanying me for dinner actually. haha... doesnt matter.realised that this year christmas is gonna be different.first,i cant decide if i shld go for midnight mass.next,i have a wedding dinner to attend on the eve.then,bestie got christmas party at her auntie's place and so do ahem.oh! weding dinner is a must,next i cant decide on mass or countdown party with ahem's.damn...
anyway,pray hard for my tests next week.i hope i get reasonable grades.sheesh... love.
;11:37:00 PM
Friday, November 25, 2005
i thought today was gonna be a horrible day.but glad it turn out alright.firstly,i wasnt tempted to go to school for that ceremony.that is practically nothing that can attract me.anyway,i went in the end duh.supposed to be seated by 1pm.i reached at 12.50pm.met haresh.chatted.helped him go to the girls toilet to look for the emcee of the ceremony.haha.den vig came along.so we went in and found a seat.bloody hell.not even 1/10 is filled.sat for 50mins chatting.den decided to go out and grab a drink.came back and its still the same.urghs.so we predicted it will start at 2.30pm.no! it only started at like 3 or sth.goodness! and it doesnt help that the people sitting near us are effing irritating.we realised that we are the only normal ones there. haha! people are like going...
"oh,i cant even rmb how many As i have last year." "which modules did you get distinction?" "wah! you're the top student for your diploma ar?" "eh! you got top in so many modules ar?"
damn! so vig turned ard and said,i can even count the number of As or dist i have man.cos he only got one dist and the rest are Bs and Cs.LOLS.we cldnt stop laughing.den came haresh and started chatting with us.haha...super funny.it was VERY much a whitleyan gathering for me. thank goodness for vig,if not i would have been bored to death.whew! cos on thu during the rehearsal, vig was sitting at the row behind me and amanda was in front of me.i thought it was qutie bad alr,since it pretty hard to talk that way as well....but no no,vig sat with me today! haha. but amanda was a few rows down.she got some contributors award.and shuan yang,super and DAMN PRO! he was the top student for his diploma!!!!!! and guess what?! his GPA is 3.9!!!! bloody hell. looks like people from my sec sch is not that bad afterall. me and vig got book prize award,amanda some plague,shuan yang got book voucher, and haresh was the emcee.im so proud of them! and the plus point is that we are ALL from the same batch. lols.so at the end of the ceremony,all of us took a pic together.it was really a good feeling.hardly do i feel this way in nyp.
it definitely spur me on to call up old friends and arrange a meetup.haha.anyway,my day wasnt that bad afterall. =)
;11:12:00 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
its been quite some time.i haven been here for a few days.stucked with the numerous tests this week.finally 2 are over.what a relief yet feeling devastated.alrights,i think thats an exaggerated term,perhaps upset and disappointed with myself.the first test went relatively bad from the start to end.the ever first time i trembled while writing my answers,prolly cos i din have much time left and i had to struggle to complete it.damn.so it ended and i think i did alright. the second test today was horrible.i thot i did studied hard.but obviously i was wrong and it indeed spurred me and many others in class to study even much much harder for the next few tests.urghs.
so since im going to start study hard,i'll not be going out un-neccessarily.examples would be chilling out with friends or shopping or whatsnot.except sunday i might be heading to st mikes with ahem.funny conversation with firhan while we were at the station today.
(chatting about sch and tests and studying hard...etc) firhan: i need to pull up my socks already.
me:(trying to be funny) your socks how high already?
firhan: (pull up his pants) i din wear any.thats why.i dun even have anything to start with.shit man.
talking about being lame and funny.firhan definitely win this.
anyway.the week just breezed past so quickly.unknowingly, its wed already.and i have one more day of school and its long weekend again.gosh...actually it din breeze past,more of late night studying and stressing and clarifying my work/tut and worrying and etc.
im going to take a short nap and hopefully start doing some work when i wake up.=)
;3:56:00 PM
Saturday, November 19, 2005
cant really study much.not in the right mood.i have no idea why.sighs.
oh,i almost forgot to mention that my best friend has FINALLY met my boy.haha. its been a long 2 years plus. and she has been complaining or more like asking me how come she has never seen him before. therefore,i hope all of you can stop asking me to show you my him alright? cos if u can wait like my best friend,you will get to see him one day. laugh out louds. many love to my bestie. =) im seeing you tmr in church right? haha...
im craving for pizza now.damn.
;4:01:00 PM
had a really BAD morning yesterday.no details.has got nothing to do with anybody,just in case you're thinking along that line... haha. anyway,was doing abit of work before heading over to glenn's place. was playing with the sister till its time to leave.his sis was damn funny.here's our convos...
me: are you going to find kor kor glenn later? (sis runs into mummy's room and back) sis: are you going to kor kor glenn army? me: err....(followed by laugh out loud)
(in the car) sis: we are reaching kor kor glenn's camp already. (in fact,we just left the place for about 5mins) me: ... ...(chuckles)
mmm...so we were a lil late.and not forgetting we dint know which company or whatever coy he's in,so the guy have to check/look for his name thru that thick stack of papers.we had to help him flip thru the papers as well.then,it was damn crowded over there.so the guy asked which 1st or 2nd coy.we dint know so just said 2nd.so all the shooting and banging and noisy thing started. lols.met jen wei there as well.he was like looking at me and me looking at him and we decided to give a small smile and wave.haha... den called char to ask whr is she,and we look dumb talking to each other over the phone while looking at each other. haha...
den his mum was asking to look for glenn.they all look the same.so i ended up taking everybody's pictures.till the time we can get down from the grandstand and on to the parade place to take pics with them.we practically took damn long to find.we walked left to right searching high and low.after probably 10mins,i found! haha.im first! so busy clicking here and there.and thanks to my bestie for helping me take a picture k. lols.
so back to grandstand and listen to some speech,then its like refreshments alr.so am walking ard and talking to char.till he came back and off we go.haha.last min decision to have dinner.went to crystal jade at the airport.they sent me home after that.i reached home at almost 11pm in the end.and i ended up talking to char for about an hr after i bathed. haha...
slept at 12plus.totally conked out.was so damn tired.but was glad that i went.haha.
;11:38:00 AM
Friday, November 18, 2005
the need to start studying for my icas is coming to me.i see the need.been busy with other stuff. urghs! okays.technically i have 3 days to study hard for it. but i can only foresee myself doing work for at most 1 and 1/2 days.lol... and i always thot that next week will be a very busy week cos of the icas coming up.but no,i believe next next week will be the same as well. haha. damn! there goes all my meeting-ups with friends. thank goodness for the long awaited 2 weeks break in dec.ive already promised to meet thiampeng before the year ends.haha! he's in aussie now,for some army thingy.lucky guy. oh chalven! lets plan another gathering again. lol. how's school coming along for you?
mm...i sleep at 2plus everyday ever since the week started.this is crappy.late night doing work doesnt help much.with my eyes half closing but my body just refuse to sleep. yea. thats why. looks like tonight is going to be the same again. sighs.
;12:31:00 AM
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Happy Birthday Malcolm!
wah!u have an entry all for you.lols.hope you have a great day ahead. =) Thanks for being such a nice friend eh.especially with all my sudden and abrupt ending of calls, like "i dun want to talk to you already.(followed by haha...)". anyways,stop all the flirting around and settle down soon. lols! im still helping you to keep a lookout on the suitable candidates. so no worries k.
;9:44:00 AM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
oh.u know.today is one of the days where i feel everything is going well for me.a day where i just walk past the mirror at home and start smiling.going into the bathroom and start humming. all these filled my day even tho i know i still have loads of tutorials and projects yet to be done, so many lectures which i attended faithfully and listened attentively,but yet do not understand a lot of things that are taught, the lot people who always drive me crazy with insane questions,etc. i know everything will turn out fine.for i must trust Him in whatever i do.=) also,im thankful for that him, for always trusting me, tho u have never said anything. .i.know.
ive come to realise that perhaps, the reasons for the happiness might be:- :: HIM (i think 'tis is definitely true!) :: ive received my pay today! but sadly,ALL of it is going to be cris-needs-a new-phone fund. (for the kind souls,try donating some uh.) :: my best friend is going for the whatever army thingy on fri as well.which means i might be seeing/or bumping into her there. :: i managed to NOT eat alot today.lols. :: my very nice sister called me after tuition to ask where am i,cos it was raining.and she went to pick me up at the bus stop.
thats all for now.=)
hopefully i'll be awake till 1.45am,cos ahem will be up by then to get ready for his super-damn-blardy- long-route-march. i wish him luck. haha! and thank goodness he will carry his phone along.
;10:15:00 PM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
no idea why am i still up late at night blogging my time away.sheesh...my day went relatively well.nothing much to say tho.just that i was damn angry and upset that my gmail account was down from ytd till like 3hrs ago.i dunno why as well.or rather what happened.anyways, ahem is back in camp already.so lesser messages once again.speaking of messages,im really so so sorry malc! i really forgot all about your msg u know.next week k.
mm...ahem got so i-dunno-what-ceremony this fri.ive decided to go.so got to head down to his place and his daddy will fetch me there.oh no.this is bad.im really gonna freak out.geez! help please.so many tests and projs coming up.so cant really meet up with alot of ppl.and this sat will be spent studying hard at home (hopefully).
my sis is back from her trip.alright.nth much.haha...and lastly,a shout-out to my bestie, "i love you!!" and yes,im glad you like the bag. =)
damn.i have to sleep soon.if not i will be awake till this time for the rest of the week.
;1:07:00 AM
Sunday, November 13, 2005
to hell with irritating pests.all hail to my boy.
i almost cried just now.stopped myself and tell myself that this wouldnt put me down.urghs.i need a drink now badly.its as if im speaking out loud when im cursing and swearing, thats why im feeling thirsty now.LOL.i need some starbucks love.of course with ahem as well.everything falls into place with him around.cos i enjoy the lil things which i always do that will embarrass either myself or him.or just laugh like a crazy woman after sharing a joke with him.or talk about nonsensical things half the time.i do that very often if you know me well enough.haha...
school at 10am tmr.blahs.absolutely nothing to turn me on.i find going to school a chore.i would love to have a computer in class so i can play games or do some shopping/find some loves online. urghs.oh yes sam! im looking forward to seeing the ON tank! its pretty.lol. and true enough, the abercrombie jacket din managed to tempt me.haha.i need one tho.help me stay a lookout on the nice ones k!
goodnight to all.i need some rest from the incessant blabberings.
;11:59:00 PM
as usual,my saturday went perfectly well.
went bugis to collect some bags.hang ard for 2 hrs all by myself.cos i was being the nice girl and let ahem go for his swim before meeting me.yups.so i walked and walked and looked and looked. yes,so many things to buy.geez.anyway,head to marina sq to get the tix to the exorcism of emily rose.had 2hrs to spare.ended up walking and playing ard.damn that show.freaking scary.i mean but it was sweet after i think about it.which guy will be so nice to stay by the girl when all these shit happens.
dinner was ljs before movie and carl's jr after movie.tried soem cheese fries.quite good i would say.head home at 10plus.lovely day.im all smiles by the time the day ended.
oh.is there some sales at bvlgari or something.ive seen quite a significant number of people carrying the paper bag.it just makes me wonder.cos even this morning when im heading to 7-11 from church to grab a drink,i see a couple carrying the paper bag to the food court.sheesh.
anyway,i got to start doing some work already.
;7:46:00 PM
Friday, November 11, 2005
damn it! this is super nice lah.shit! but its a freaking usd$58 for it.damn damn damn! i'll definitely get it if i haf the money.sheesh.help me please! or can someone pls get it for my christmas or whatever present u deem fit. err.i dun mind this colour as ell lah.effing striking.quoted by khorkai,"why u always wear until so striking?" geez! i need some moolah to get past all this temptations. its a tennis dress!! short and pretty.a pity i wun wear it out and its too short for me.so lovely. guess what.its only usd$8.99. oh my goodness.im about to bang my head on the wall. i find this pretty as well.thank goodness they dun have my size alr.i think(!). haha.cos its only usd$4.99! woo-hoo.kill me please.i need a break from all these pretty stuff.
;10:17:00 PM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
oh wells.my day was relatively good.with much accompanied laughters and fun. first was on my way to school, i met uzair,benson,terry and fid at j8.being the nice girl then,ive decided to help uz tap his admin card today,cos he haven complete his ica2.so all of them got to go get the bikes and so i waited patiently for them at the bus stop.damn! they were so slow lah.but thank goodness,wai kit saw me and called me. so we began chatting and all. he was on his way to np. ahh!such a nice feeling to see an ex-classmate from cjc.yups,we are all the dropouts of cjc. lol. joking. den uz came so i took the stuff and rush off to sch.so i was like maybe meet up soon with the rest and stuff,and he replied call yewteng along.i was like laughing to myself on the train lah. i almost went like, "i'll remember not to call the frog along." hahaha...
so when i reach yck,i saw sivan,and so coincidentally, i was actually on the same train as min,eileen and benny.but we were like all so ignorant of it.till we saw one another.so i need not walk to school alone.=) lectures were boring like hell.zilch learning.at the access lab with eileen during break was crazy.i almost cried laughing.the last lesson was pretty laugh-able with the welcome-back of benson to class. haha... then,my sis fetch me home! yeahs!
anyways,tmr got to be studying and catching up and tuitioning in the afternoon. whew! i hope i wun end up slacking.
ah! the anf jackets are damn cheap now! shit! im seriously tempted.i still have a couple of days to consider tho.visited the juicy couture website in sch just now. some pretty bags there,but hell no to USD$125 for a clutch or USD$245 for a bag. lols.im craving for some sweets from candy empire.jellybeans again.haha.its an addiction,but not so bad now.i dun eat that much anymore. or maybe some royce choc once again. its heavenly. damn good.
;11:25:00 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
why are you so fickle minded.so damn bloody irritating.leave us all alone pls.stay away.
school was alright today.had to go for tuition after that.super tired,but was hyper after that.lol. thank goodness i completed my ica2,if not u can see me staying up once again to rush thru it. i slept at 1.45am last night.15mins earlier than ytd.-grins- luckily lessons start at 12 tmr.i need to catch up on some sleep seriously.
tried to do some work.tough tough.damn! study hard bitch! no more emo feeling these days. good sign.even tho there's no msgs from ahem.im supposed to go,"kill me please." but hell no.its not his fault.my NE essay last night mentioned something about national service.i said it was more of a responsibilty than burden.and all that yada shit.perpetually psycho-ing myself. -chuckles-
living on minimal amount of food now.maybe not that minimal,just eat less. haha.im craving for some good food tho.i doubt there will be any this week.i want dan ryans! i want to cheat them that its someone's birthday so i can get a free cake.lol.cheapo. or maybe some jap food pls. yongteng mentioned sakae ytd.and i thot its not a bad idea. hey dude! i hope a's will be over real soon for you.best of luck once again. =) and also to all who's taking a's now.
i received two packages today.one big and one small.was like wondering what the hell is in the small one.after tearing it open."oohhhhhh........." i almost forgot all about it. lol. im thinking of selling away my ralph lauren jacket.i love it but i hardly use it.unwilling to let it go at a low price as well.i got it at 100plus you see.impulse buying.actually not very also lah.i took like one month to consider and there was a discount that time.sheesh...
new schoolbag as well.ran out of bags.damn.please tell me if you see any nice ones out there. juicy couture has one pretty bag.i think it retails for sgd 100plus. oh.i saw someone carrying it in school tho.so maybe its a sign not to buy it.afterall,lets just psycho myself that the bag is ugly.
;9:55:00 PM
goodness! i just completed my NE article.im having fun doing it as time passes. it feels so much like writing a GP paper. i took damn long to complete. guess im gonna do my tut later on. wanted to sleep at 12 today.but i took a nap from 4 to 7pm just now.so now i dun think i can fall asleep so fast.i only slept at 2am ytd.
school is boring.tuts and projs almost everyday.whats new.
got to check my mail, reply mails and surf around for a while before doing my work.
nights!
;12:48:00 AM
Sunday, November 06, 2005
seriously dying.
just completed my marketing management ica 2.a load off my mind.but its only a measely 5%. okays,i know the yada-yada about how much it can affect my grades k.dun ever start it please. thank you.just that this week is too much fun and i can hardly get down to serious work.maybe i was too looking forward to this week,that brought my downfall now.lols.im just kidding.im not that nerdy to stay home and mug my day away.i admit i do at times.but thats at night.when the feeling/mood is right,tada! you see me reading till the wee hours.haha...
oh ya.ica 1 is erm...90% completed.left with the really dumb NE article.crap.really hate myself for not planning to do it earlier,cos i could have persuaded ahem to maybe help me complete half of it.grins...now he can only give me ideas on what to include.alrights.its better than nothing at least.ooh.coreen's entry made me miss the times where i study tog with ahem.cos we took one same subject at least.haha...maths! =) and maths lect is fun cos we are sitting practically next to each other,just that its separated by the stupid stairway.lol.
actually there is still ict projs.hell lot of it.and also many tut.boo! next week is gonna be catch up week hopefully.but with all the projs and tuts and now tuition! geez.i hope i can survive.no heading out next week.i mean at least till friday.
cousin's wedding today.pretty fun.woke up at an amazing 6plus.almost died from waking up too early.but i have to.wanted to head down town to get my jacket/sweater.but i was damn tired already,and if i go,i have to go home myself.for now.i better go complete my work already.
i miss ahem.
;10:54:00 PM
Friday, November 04, 2005
today was fairly simple.met glenn in the morning.head for tuition at 12pm.home.tv all the way. bless me for all my projs and work which are undone.LOL.
anyway,am trying hard to think of what to do for marketing management proj.haha. searched some websites for ideas though. i hope i can finish it by tomorrow.cos sunday will be my cousin's wedding.luckily its only till the afternoon,its a wedding lunch at four seasons.i still have the night to complete the rest.hopefully duh.
would love to thank god for something.actually,i cant make up my mind if it should or should not be a good thing.firstly,glenn is not coming out tmr,so i have more time to do my work, lesser distraction,cos my mind will not be occupied of meeting him. next,i know he wants to be out real badly,i mean who likes to stay in camp right.so i was wishing (partly) that he gets to come out. so i really dunno which is better.i cant weigh the advantages and stuff.it just doesnt help in case you dint know.
before i forget,i am truly sorry to all these individuals listed below.
sera: was supposed to call her out for lunch this week,but i dint.im feeling bad.
yanz: thot i could meet up with you over lunch or dinner for the catching up.one night wasnt really enuf.
char: i dint managed to accompany you for lunch this week.sorry! but we'll meet up soon. love.
malc: hey! im so so sorry you know.i know i promised already.hope you understand.
and also to km,if you are reading this.erm...you owe me hell loads of presents! lols.im being crazy and bitchy.sorry about that.haha...
;10:36:00 PM
Thursday, November 03, 2005
yesterday was supposed to be really fun fun fun.it end up only fun.but nevertheless, thanks to the 3 girls who brought in so much of fun.zouk was effing crowded last night.superb-ly packed to hell.really...it was CRAZY! do u know how effing long the bloody queue was.if u have been there, u know the carpark between zouk and the hotel.i was queuing right at the end where the barriers to the car park were.the queue was THAT long.crap.came out of the queue once char reached.hang ard at the hotel area with char and gladys calling tons of people to bring us in. finally meiyan came.wanted to head to so many places but keep hearing that its packed and all. jon was prety nice lah,he msged me said he saw me and stuff.den asked where am i going cos zouk is packed and stuff.in the end,he head to black.so the 4 of us were outside discussing where to go till like 11plus.haha....decided on madam wong.board a cab and alighted at coccolatte.lols. saw the usual people.the cj bunch.
once again,we din go in to either cocco or liquid rm.we end up at char's fren's pub along mohd sultan.sat ard.played dai dee.meiyan left early.so the 3 of us took a cab down to black.the only place left.the queue was not that bad.tried to cut queue,but the bouncer came.urghs.in the end, we realised cant get in cos me and char are in flats.damnit black for the stupid rule of a must to wear heels.haha...the last station of the day was mac.hang ard till 3plus.and off i go to royal plaza hotel to look for ahem and gang.they were damn crazy.book a hotel room to watch soocer.and guess wat.they only check in at like 3am or sth.LOL.i slept on the sofa for 2 hrs.head home at 7plus.what a day.
slept frm 8plus till 12 plus.woke up for lunch.den meet ahem again for movie at j8.oh crap.i got to give up on a jacket which i reserved at f21 ytd.this guy working there is dman dumb man.cos i went at like 9pm.and asked this guy if i can reserve it.so he was like can and stuff.so i asked for how long.he said one day.den he explained that if i reserve it now,den i have until tomorrow to make a decision lah.so i was like okay and went to choose the color and size.den i head to the counter with another guy there.so i said i wan to reserve it.u know what he said,"okay.we can reserve it till today." WTH.it was already 9plus at night.and the store closes at like what,10pm at most.so what for i reserve if its only until 10pm.den i went on to explain that the other guy told me blah blah blah.he was okok.sheesh.anyway,i din get it as well.sighs.it was perfect for school u see.but but.tight on budget.
by the way,transporter 2 is quite a nice show.action-packed and pretty cars.a couple at least. haha.
to round off my pretty long entry.many thanks to my best friend,meiyan and gladys for last night. i'll try to go again before 2005 ends k.grins...
;6:14:00 PM
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
i really hate it when i start to feel this way.all cramped up, all stressed up, feeling worried, scaring myself with crazy thoughts, get all jittery cos im afraid of sth.
the feeling aint nice.i wish you were here to tell me dont worry,cos everything will be fine. i have to admit im a sucker when it comes to sweet nothings.i mean most girls are i presume.so do i.
tonight is just one of those days where im feeling all so emo.something which i kind of hate.cos all the weird thoughts start coming in,and i really imagine alot.i should be doing my work now, cos i told myself to complete this today.but im only 2/3 done.crap.im beginning to hate school once again.not that school has been better or anything.
i hope tmr will be a better day for me.many things to be done.got to go for a one session tuition. head to church in the evening. then dance my night away. supposedly meetin ahem for either breakfast or in the late afternoon.but its all pushed back to thursday.
;11:41:00 PM
was doing a bit of my work just now.till i get really bored cracking my head over all the answers and stuff.sheesh... this week is gonna be busy busy busy.i know u dun see me that busy lah.but i just find myself struggling to find time.
i seriously wonder how people can study,work,meet friends and go to sch at the same time. where do they find the energy and stuff? yea crap.i should stop all these shit and get back to my work.oh ya.i got 2 tees in a week.more clothes for school.yippes! i need either a new phone or camera.the new canon cam looks pretty.but but.i need the moolah first.can some people contribute to my i-need-a-new-phone-fund... i really need help here.lol.