woke up like 7plus in da morn...tired like crazy man.managed to drag myself out of the bed tho...prepare myself to meet yunx!! oh my...ages since i last saw her man.anw,we decided to meet at yck interchange.so as usual,she was late.lols.(but its ok la dearie...) so while waiting for her,i bought a can of drink... den sat down...
after tt...there comes a weird ah pei...he was on a bicycle wif lots of used cans behind...so i supposed he's those kind of "collect used cans and sell them" uncle la...anw,he came up to me and point to my can...sayin "i want the can"... in chi duh...so i replied i haven finish yet...den he ask again and i said the same thing... he waited for 5 mins standing next to me staring at the can... after tt,he sat behind me and continue staring...finally,yunx is here and i gave him the can w/o finishin the drink in the end...haha...
walked inside NYP and we got practically no idea whr to go...walk to da admission office and the sign outside directed us to Blk R... hmm... obviously we dunno whr is tt,so the cleaner(i think) gave us the directions... nice lady. reached dere...but doesnt seem like the place since it was a photocopying rm... wonder ard for a while and realised it is tt rm...blur us...lols.bought the stuff tt we needed...took some photos along the way... since yunx "KNOWS" how to operate my digicam...*giggles* took a couple of shots at the waterfall as well...but it cannot be seen in the pic...so yunx decided to take a pic of the waterfall alone...den she took a bus and i took the train... haiz...
days before today was horrible... was suffering frm this emotional turmoil... cldnt take everything...seemed like i was abt to break down and all... i din physically but i did emotionally...as in i dun show it to ppl... everything was kept inside me,myself and i... for a moment...everything lost its meaning... i din know wat am i living for...wat am i doing...why am i here...
but things got better today...at least for some things...i know im not facing it alone...i needed time off from everything...juz wan to stop watever im doing.and sleep thru it... din wan to think abt anything.worry abt anything... i know i cant handle this alone... i need ta strength to help me thru this...
anw,on a better note...my sis is goin thailand end of mar...yeah!! gonna get so many new stuff man... cant wait... looks like im gna give hre a list of things to buy.lols...btw,bought a new mango top today...pretty cool.haha.but thos means im one step further from gettin my ralph lauren polo tee... trying to get ppl to buy...maybe dan...hope hope...but doubt he will....since he says he's gettin a bike in jun...so he wun haf the extra cash to buy my present... oh shit... arghz... he's a nice guy afterall... offering me free rides even tho he hasnt got the bike.is tt gd or bad? i guess good will be at nite might be safer since no nid to go hm alone and faster... bad will be ppl getting wrong ideas... haiz.but nvm...nt a big prob yet...
goin seoul garden tmr!! yeah! haven had a full meal since dunno when... gna fill my hungry stomach till it explode.lols...but glenn says i'll only eat a lil... got ta prove him wrong...hmm....haf i ever said tt he's such a sweet lil dearie... sendin the nicest sms on earth... love it!!!
hmm...guess im toking crap now...seems to be jumping from one topic to another..but who cares...haiz.my life is too short to make another grave mistake...im gna hold u real tight and nv let u go... we'll stay in a world of our own and no one will be able to break us up...haha....crazy me again...
btw,i'll be free on wed....so anyone free juz give a call k... love ya guys!
;12:00:00 AM
Friday, February 27, 2004
at hm now.goin to work ltr...work nowadays is super duper boring.haiz...
i decided nt to get the skirt...oh my...wat a big temptation it was man.i doubt i'll ever get the skirt.loud sobs.the size i want seems to be like so limited.arghz... btu when i finally found the size...i give it all up since i dun nid it right now... even tho im giving the reason tt i nid it for poly...
oh...poly...shit...the results are out today...which means i haf to choose my courses soon...and i mean REAL SOON.wat the F.this is definitely driving me nuts...btw,thanks jiamx for ytd...
i dunno wat to write for a moment...mind went completely blank.
okay...back to normal...jia you to all my frens for the coming cts... mug hard...
yanz:glad tt u're putting a whole load of efforts tis time.jia you!!
lala:glad to see u on the bus tt day.u work hard too yea?
as usual,im missing him rite now.cant meet him nxt wk.sobs.
btw,yong teng is one funny guy...we were like sms-ing the other day den toking abt meeting up wif des....so funny.like the days im free he either got trainings or friendly matches...den desmond wld be having tests and all... lols. but apparently tis time round,he din tok abt mapes...weird...
;10:21:00 AM
Monday, February 23, 2004
im sorry for cursing at you ytd...but i've learnt to love my enemies...
went to sunset mass today after work...needed some time off from everything... from work,friends,him and everything else... managed to tok to god abt my problems and all...really love the feeling... practically alone in god's place,able to share wif him my probs.
after tt walked to town alone....yes alone... needed much of tt... but dun worry tt if im sad or anything... i juz wanted to be alone.... =) was so happy coz the first place i went was the mango shop at centrepoint...miraculously they haf the size of the skirt i wanted.cldnt find it in other places....the worse thing is tts the last piece....almost wanted to pay for it le,but decided to put it on reservation... haiz. i really dunno if i shld get it...sobs....
*new updated "WANT" list...
- ralph lauren polo tee. (i've found the one i liked.guess it shld suit me.i really liked it man....gosh...)
-mango skirt
-another pair of adidas shorts
-a pair of heels. lols. i dunno for wat as well.
-a FCUK top. (god knows i've been wanting tt for how long man.)
-a GUESS jeans... im praying i get the 25% disc.
-a levi's jeans... i am getting 40% off that...haha.all thanks to my sis.
-a haircut...lols.
to all kind souls out dere... i dun mind having one of those stuffs from the "WANT" list...haha...
;10:15:00 PM
i fucking hate you for all the lies....
thats the end of our friendship...
i see no point in havin YOU as my friend since u're avoiding me.
and hiding stuff from me...
FUCK YOU...
i hate you right-to-the-core now.
FUCK FUCK FUCK....
this is the end of another friendship...
yes,this is how cruel life is....
and i bloody feel cheated right now....
the bloody problem is u shldnt be able to make me feel this way....
i juz FUCKING hate you now....
i'll tell myself tt i dun nid you as a fren anymore.
Thanks for leaving....and i found out the truth myself....
A million thanks to you for walking out of my life....
and a million congrats for being such a good actor...
im looking forward to seeing you get some bloody award....
Good-Bye....
;12:04:00 AM
Sunday, February 22, 2004
i wanna write abt so many things now...but i dunno whr shld i start from... im completely lost in a world of my own.nothing else seems to matter nowadays. my life is juz in a deep shit i guess... i really dunno whr am i heading to...
*my future seems so bleak...
i cant think properly rite now.shld be aslp by now.the medicine is pretty drowsy.but im forcing myself to be awake.for no apparent reason obviously.i dunno why am i doin this and why the hell am i typing this... wat a whole lot of crap...
read cait's blog... accidentally clicked on the archives....and started reading abt things tt happened last yr... it muz haf been a pretty bad yr,and i haven been dere for you...but wateveer it is,my da he he fren... be strong and believe in god... ask for his guidance and he'll lead you....
i miss going jamming...it feels so great juz to see ppl jam... esp ppl u know. everything juz fall into place...
*i miss my lil dearie... i definitely cant wait to see him again.but cts are coming and i dun wanna disturb him.... he cant afford to waste anymore time sitting dere listening to all my craps... but i miss him... miss his msgs.... miss his hugs...miss juz sitting dere doin nth wif him...
im getting this new mango skirt... hopefully to get it tmr...tt means i haf to go town again...pretty sick of tt place...but i guess tts the only place wif the largest number of mango shops...need to get the correct size man... shit... but its a bloody $65... any kind souls out dere willing to pay for it? haha...i doubt so.... wat the hell.. i haf so many bloody clothes which i haven wear... one mambo overall which i bought months ago... one mango skirt which i think i'll nv wear unless im goin clubbing or sth... one tube top which i got no idea why i bought it... one 37degree skirt which i bought durin the sale,but i cant find any matching top.one new adidas shorts which i bought a few days back...even tho i oredie had 2 at hm... but im pretty much in love wif adidas nowadays...even tho i know i shldn't buy it coz i guess its pretty much gna be the trend tis yr... haiz... nt forgettin tis halter neck dress which i bought mths ago as well,i haven wore it a single time.so shitty...so why the hell am i buyin new clothes when i still haf SO MANY which i haven wore...
*looks like my bank account might deplete sooner or later...
btw,jiamx...its so seldom to see u use the F word man...haha.miss the tow huay? lols...
had a big splurge the other day...went coffee bean for my fav combi... it was my break time and i felt like goin somewhere away from everybody... a pretty nice and windy place.sat dere alone...thinkin abt lots of stuff... a nice feeling... the wind blowing.me relaxing.din wanna go back to work man...
*my lil dearie juz msged me.he's gna slp oredie.it feels so nice juz to receive one msg from him... everything else doesnt seems to matter anymore at tt time...seems like msgin him everyday is part of my life now.its weird nt msging him.the feeling juz aint right... simply love him to every little bits... but definitely nt to the extent of giving up everything for him but to the extent of giving up everything which can be given up for him... pretty crappy lar...watever... haha...
shall stop here...pretty long entry... haiz.adios... good night to the world... good night my dear lord.
*dear lord...pls guide me thru everyday of my life and send ur guardian angels down upon my beloved friends...
;11:24:00 PM
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
im at his place now...goin hm soon...haiz.the medicine is makin me crazy.cant stand the stupid smell...hey meiting and yupei...rmb the smell? its back again.lols...
;8:25:00 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004
went to see the doc juz now...abt my nose bleeding...she makes it snd so serious lor.like if u dun recover in one wk....den muz go to ENT for some checkup.but i got no idea whr is tt.lols.
anw,im so lookin forward for my ice cream date!! haha...my green tea ice cream!!!! so excited.grins.
;12:32:00 PM
hey sheena!! wo xiang si ni le! im doin fine.you? thanks for the lil tag... cts coming le,jia you k?
;12:30:00 PM
im really happy!! but maybe happy isn't the word to describe me now.im more than happy.... grins.
had a great valentine day...met dan in the afternoon for a while.went town to walk ard...supposedly looking for some bday presents la,but obviously ended up wif nth.lols.but i din buy anything as well.so proud of myself tho.-chuckles- anw,met thiam peng at j8 before tt....started chatting a lil.and poor him had to go school for cca...haiz.met glenn's classmate as well...some guy name joshua.haha.den was at the train station and saw wilson...dun really know him la,its some friend's friend,but seems like he knows quite alot of my friends and all...but watever it is,heard tt he's going mtv asia awards wif his girl.... slacked ard town...settled at LJS.and met eric...my pri sch fren...we r really fated to meet man...it's like i juz saw him the day b4 at my workplace and met him again the nxt day.den his fren chose the seat juz behind mine.so he was like "eh,so qiao ar?" lols.den we started toking back to back....and he said we look like some couple trying to admire the moon or sth... den we started laughin.haha.
my lil dearie came not long ltr...so my fren left.din know whr to go but decided SBG.haha.went to slack and read the cj sch mag dere.lols.it's a really nice place i think.took some pics dere.but mostly the scenery.grins...left at 7 plus to a jap restaurant...a pretty nice place juz tt its really cramped and all.den went to esplanade....saw daryl pan on the way and was wondering how the hell glenn knows him.lols....a few steps ltr,saw yanbin and the gf.... was walkin outside esplanade and saw meiyan,chelsea,maisie,rebecca and reuben.... got a lil shock when meiyan practically screamed! haha.yan ar...cannot embarrass yourself in public k.lols.maisie was such a sweetie to give me a rose...thanks sweets! took a couple of pics dere and i excluded reuben....lols.but i realised i was pretty mean.geez... so sorry.anw,had a great time after tt...big =) wanted to take a cab hm,but the stupid driver dun wan to stop,so ended up taking a bus....sobs.nonetheless,the night was superb...love it....thanks so much dearie! love ya to bits! muaks!
;12:04:00 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
tis post is supposedly dedicated to jess dearie...but no-no...it shall be to most of the ppl in 1T08...
yup,hey jess.u wanted me to tell u my 1st impression of u rite?but doubt we can meet up soon so shall write it in my blog..haha...
our class is on the 5th floor la,so is 1T06...which is beverly's class.think u know her rite?anw,was pretty close to her la,so she walked past our class quite a few times for the 1st day...den she told me tt dere's tis girl in my class called jessica,she's aimee's pri sch fren.so i was like "really..?" cant exactly rmb wat she said but i thinkits sthlike she looks dao la.so i went back to class and take a look.yup,u indeed look so dao and fierce.tts bcoz u u dun smile tt often...but anw,impression was completely changed after tt...den few days ltr,realised we were in the same pw grp,so the first thing i did was told bev "oh my...she's in my pw grp!" was pretty scared i cldn't click wif u la.haha.but everything changed after our first pw meeting...teh best part was me sitting next to you...so fun and all...always listenin to my jokes.lols.but i dun treat u tt badly after all,i shared my wang wang wif u and our girl power gang lor.geez...those were the great times.we had our own lil dustbin tied to our tables,how we shared food during lessons and definitely how we survived the horrendous hist lessons..haha.
hmm...back to the 1st few days of sch...thot meiyan was some ah lian...and zak was some ah beng...but the i did guess correctly for the latter...zak was simply bad...but i dunno why i hang ard wif him so often oso la.most prob coz i was sitting in the frnt row beside him and the rest of our row was those ... ... haha.ppl like lester and zl.haha.decided to change to tjhe 2nd row since there was an empty seat.sat nxt to adel...hmm...1st impression of her is the cookie girl....haha.coz she carries tis glass jar wif cookies inside and she share it wif us.such a nice girl yea....den dere was steph,xuemei,cait,justin and shawn in the 2nd row as well...cldn't click wif them at first.thot tt shawn and justin were retainees....*chuckles*
den dunno why changed to the 3rd row after tt.sat nxt to yongteng... haha. gossip alot during tt 2 days....haha.told me alot of things abt class and all.abt the girls...who is the prettiest,the noisest and the most gay...maple changed her seat and sat nxt to me.meiyan was nxt to maple den.din know yan at tt time,but we gt closer bcoz i laugh alot.haha.... mingli and jose were the 2 ppl whom i cant get their names rite...so funny man...
hmm...enuf of all the craps and all... 1T08 might be one of the lousiest class. but the fun and great times we had will always be held close to our hearts... 2T08 will nt be the same again.... and never will it be the same again....
;4:53:00 PM
im slacking at hm now...only in the afternoon la,but i did sth pretty meaningful in da morning...im pretty satisfied now.haha...
anw,i juz hate it when ppl becomes so "fake" nowadays...i nv ever thot tt i'll write sth like tis in my blog k.never ever...even tho i read so much abt all this fucking crap in other ppl's blogs...but why muz u tarnished the image of yourself inside me? i treasure this friendship more than any other things... yes,i agree tt u've been a great fren and confidante of mine...but nvm... its nt all ur fault,but im pretty pissed wif wat happened...this friendship is sth i hold deeply in my heart and u simply ruined everything...sheesh...why is this happening to me?!?! u F*** up ppl,leave me alone!!!!
on a lighter note...today was quite okay...received a sms frm yewteng...haha. den he was telling me he injured himself and is slacking at hm right now... haha.wrote a few testi for some ppl...and realised i forgot to write my 2nd testi for my dearest char...sheesh...i'll write it tmr den.haha...
;4:43:00 PM
Saturday, February 07, 2004
my com is finally okay oredie...sorry for nt blogging...anw,nowadays,many things are like so different...esp btwn friends....they r nt keepin to their promises and stuff...(nt like i kp to all of my promises as well la.) so who cares...
lil msgs for some of you...
lala:thanks for the lil tag...i miss ya.great to see for tt few secs in town the other day.mit up agn?
jess:hey...cheer up yea?hope u aint sad or down anymore.juz rmb my wang wang and lame jokes enuf le kaes?
jose: WHERE ARE YOU?? seemed to haf lost touch wif u le...hope u're doing fine....=)
yunx:so glad u r back...is the bear still rotting at ur place? anw,i miss you... meet up for some crazy times soon yea?
yanz:jia you! take care...