im suffering from a major depression ever since i woke up at 9pm.i fell asleep once i reached home at 6plus,and the first thing i did when im up was to feel super-f-up and moody.dun ask how can one be f-up and moody at the same time pls.crap... i just hope time can pass faster cos im currently on a i-hate-everyone mood.
i simply do not,i repeat DO NOT understand how the fcuk can you complain so much when you are the one doing all those shit.goodness.i have no bleeding idea how you can be so ignorant about all thats happening around you.this is shit man.by the way, you pissed me off,not forgetting others as well.stop thinking the world is oh-so-beautiful.fcuk.
thank god for your message.im feeling better.
craving for starbucks green tea frap again.sheesh.its gna be my weekly dosage soon. haha...i need a little shopping to unwind as well. =)
my mind cant think coherently now.everything is like messed up and whatsnot.i think i should end my entry soon,just in case i flare up once more.
;10:59:00 PM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
so many things going through my mind at this moment.but all i can remember is you and only you.the happy times together,the sweet little messages and the many many treats.all that ive asked for is to be with you always,to be able to have my hand in yours and to spend some quality time together.thanks so so much for everything dear. you put a smile on my face everytime i see your message.really...so please send more often instead of sleeping so much.lols.im looking forward to next week.i hope everything goes well.i miss you.
;11:17:00 PM
dedicated for my best friend.
im a computer idiot kaes.so im glad i managed to do this. <3
woke up this morning wanting to go sentosa.crap.its so damn last min i doubt anyone wants to. and the fact tt i have a test later doesnt make it seem so appealing anymore.gave up the thot.slack in bed a while more and im fully awake.den i felt like gg for a swim.but my body says no.so tada! im slacking at home,supposedly to be busy working on my project.hurhur.
;9:03:00 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
school is such a bore.alright.actually im pretty much contradicting myself cos i simply wish i can go back to classical modules asap.i guess its just tep which sucks big time.haha...the past few days went relatively well.as compared to other weeekdays for the past few weeks.im so thankful for everything now.
thankful for... him being back in sgp. best friend who helps me do so many things. girlfriends for the constant meetings. certain sch friends who nv fails to forget me.
tmr im doin night shift in school.so to the usual few,i think i'll be calling you guys if im bored. haha! so be prepared to receive my call.yup.cant wait for the weekends to be here.so sorry jac! i dun think i can go for the party.u know...sth more impt.hehe...but dun worry,i help u ask ard k. =)
bestest khaki: how are you already? feeling better? call me if u nid anything. =)
;9:29:00 PM
Sunday, September 25, 2005
my sat went relatively well.excluding the part where i felt like crying suddenly,in the middle of town.alright.it was sudden but i din do it.haha.anyways,i left home at 5pm to do a little shopping in town first.went to the usual den head to borders to read some mags.was bored so i went over to paragon starbucks to get my green tea frap.so i sat there alone while this bunch of guys stare at me like they haf never seen someone drinking alone at starbucks.wtf.ahem came like 10mins later and waited for me to finish up my drink.walked ard.head to ps cos he wanted to see daryl's pic in seventeen magazine.and to get his comics.they dun have it so its back to taka kino.only had dinner at 9pm.i was pretty hungry by then,after all the walking.haha...only reached home at 11pm.whew~
sorry jac for replying late and not picking up ur call!! cos my phone was in his bag den when u called i was bathing...hehe.sorry! join you another day k.maybe we'll organise one another day. =)
was feeling damn guilty after i reached home last night.cos it was weiting's (glenn's classmate)birthday,and glenn was supposed to go for dinner with them and all.in the end,he only joined them for movie in the afternoon.and last yr weiting actually treated us to dinner.i feel bad now.sheesh...
;5:35:00 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Tuesday
got a free pair of tix to The Red Shoes.but nobody wants it.i dunno why.called many people to ask if they wan it,in the end none wants.so i end up watching it with malc.cos he was out from camp.we left like 45 mins after the show began.i was damn scared and all la,so we went out and head to yoshi for dinner.lols...left town at abt 8.45pm.took a train down to bishan while he head for yishun.finally met ahem...so glad.went coffee bean to catch up and update him with the tons of stories.haha...time is never enough whenever im telling him stories.grins...anyways,head home at 10plus.
Wednesday
movie date with eileen.went to watch Be With Me.supposed to be at ps,den we changed to great world.all thanks to maddie that we get to book the seats online first.haha.so me and eileen head to ps first to get some stuff and nice carolyn and maddie pick us up and off we go to great world. the show was nice.some parts were funny tho.only reached home at 10plus again...whew~
Then today was the road show for our aerobics class.it was bad.which was expected i guess.and it sucks when people put you down.i mean we put in our efforts already right.so dun give me all that shit cos i dun deserve it.and most importantly,you have no rights to put people down. take a look at your attitude some times,some of us dun even bother telling you.what for when all we get is crap,esp when we did nothing wrong.
just feel that nyp people are getting worse.goodness! i need my girlfriends more than them some times.at least they cheer u up instead of putting you down. they have fun when we guys are out,instead of being so dull in whatever you do. their one phone call or message means so much rather than me seeing your name on my phone and i go like,"wtf,im not picking it up."
and the most happy thing is that ahem is back.so so glad.you have no idea how much i missed him in that 3 weeks.people always go like,"got meh?" so im telling you that one need not show it out how he/she feels all the time alright? so shut the hell up and bombarding me with senseless questions which will only leave me in a rage.i hate it.i really do.
;8:45:00 PM
finally some photos taken on char's bday...i took it from everywhere cos my comp cant receive it from char... its just a small fraction of the amount of pics we took that day. laugh out louds!
tongues out! me,gladys and char
crossing the road! lols.its on the pavement by the way.
yummilicious food at billy bombers. char,me,gladys and junjia
posing by the escalator.
where should we go? hmm...
pouting except junjia
;7:40:00 PM
Monday, September 19, 2005
im back home.night duty was slack.haha! and i finally know why i think im growing fat.all cos of carolyn!she has been asking us to eat and eat and tempting us with food half the time.urghs! and maddie went crazy during closing,she was practically dancing to the music video on her comp.
anyways,im glad that its finally mon.which means he will be back either tmr or wed. -smiles
movie tmr! yeah! either with ahem or mummy.depends.and wed is movie again with eileen... haha.den hopefully the rest of this week will be good and fun.shopping treats from ahem hopefully...he owes me many.along with many many dinners as well. =) im all set for a perfect week ahead.
by the way,sorry to many whom i haven been meeting up with.esp meiyan.i haven seen u for ages.soon soon alrights? and are we still pao pao-ing along with dai dee-ing? lols.
before i forget.i have to include malcolm's name in my blog.another private joke.haha! update me soon on the latest gossips alright?! and how can we missed each other last sat when we were at the same place?!!! lols.
;10:33:00 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
in school now.apparently there is nothing much to do lah.this explains why im slacking. and the best part,the PT clients who are supposed to be here are not.haha.im free.surfing around. wondering how i get this blue black on my arm.lols.
last night i cldnt receive char's file again.urghs.it took me 4 hrs and when its about done,there is some error.wth.but nvm.we'll try again.haha...sera and i realised that there are quite a few parties going on next week.almost every single day other than mon and sun.cos she was askin me to go friendster and check if i cld see her bulletin,so i went to see and read the rest of the bulletin as well.and we found out tt...
tue-newsroom bar wed-coccolatte thu-club momo fri-i cant rmb sat-club liberte
anyways.one more hour to go before i head home for lunch.haha! chinatown at night with parents i think.oh shit i just realised sth.hey char! i haven go get the loop nyc clutch bag yet. haha! how how.im broke as well.shld i ask mummy? which i believe she will say is not nice. i still have tangs voucher to use as well.but the expiry date is in 2007.so i still have a long way to go.
;12:01:00 PM
Friday, September 16, 2005
he is finally back after so long.i mean back in camp,not sg.lols! goodness.cant wait for him to be back here in singapore. =)
anyways,tmr working in sch again.sighs.boring job.hopefully there are still time for me to do some work out.haha! and im going town tmr to collect my stuff. yeah! happy!
char sent me a super big file ytd.its 161340kB.lols.i left my comp on teh whole night,hoping it will be done in the morning.guess wat.apparently i think my sis off the comp or sth,thus nothing was saved in the end.so now,its back to square one.haha...
and i think i seriously need to sell off some stuff to get some money.im pretty broke. if not i'll be at the hunks and babes party tonight already! urghs.supposed to go with sera,aimee and stef. but stef wants to go zouk with her cousins,so does aimee.sera wants indochine but im broke. sad... and also tmr i have sch,so i think if i go indo tonight,i'll be cranky tmr.lols.
next fri is yewteng's bday party at chijmes tho.how how.i dun think i'll be goin as well lah.school is gna be effing busy next wk.i hate school.everyone has got lots of stuff to do,but we have no idea where to start.thats the big problem.
;10:27:00 PM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
haven been updating recently.so lazy and tired.the only fun day was monday. where i celebrated char's bday.
head home to change at 3pm.went cine to look for them.walked ard.sat down again.bought food. walked ard again.it rained so we were stucked at lucky plaza's mac.bought more food.wait a while and off we go to hereen billy bombers.haha! ran in the rain.send the friend off at the hereen bus stop.so after that,we only reached there at like 8pm.took loads of crazy photos before the food was served and after we went off.it was totally a photo frenzy.really...in the middle of orchard road.woah.embarrassing yet fun.its almost one click of the cam every 5 to 10 steps we take.lols.only reached home at 11plus in the end...
tue,wed and thu was nothing much.hang ard school.slacked while im supposed to be working hard at my projs.sighs...less than one more week!!! yeahs.
;6:40:00 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
the past 2 days was fun fun.
fri was meetin up with char after sch.went so many places man.haha... from tanjong pagar to city hall to bugis to town... whew.so tired after reachin home la.which was like 11plus already.
sat morning...i woke up and started watching charlie and the choc factory vcd,cos my sis is returning it alr.den received a msg from sera to meet earlier,so i rushed thru everythign.from wrapping her present to changing.went cine to look for her friends.and i got myself a pair of tickets to The Red Shoes.grins...head to wheellock fish and co to meet aimee and stef.home sweet home after that.
rest for a while.and off i go to meet jac,eileen and benny.had a helluva fun time! haha.walked ard lookin for eileen's jacket den go for dinner.den meeting carolyn and maddie at crystal jade.we sat at the big round table and only 2 of them eating.lol.went to the arcade since it was still early and benson joined us.so off we go.haha... changed from home to gotham.the company was good. thus,everything went well... reached home at about 4 and im up at 10am.lols.couldnt get back to sleep.
now...im awake and gonna do some work rather than sleep my sunday away.
;12:45:00 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
i just find some people a big disgust. they have no sense of guilt when they speak. tell me how nice it is when someone puts your friend down right in front of you. i mean dont you know how fucking rude/impolite/inconsiderate that is. this is such a disgust.
i might be criticising so many people that makes you wonder what about myself. i just feel that at least i dun put YOUR friends down right in front of you, prolly cos i can think and understand better. eew.you turn me off.
thank god its fri tmr.another week coming to an end. -smiles counting down to your comeback. =)
i just realised that my table is in a big mess. earrings,papers,pens,books,rubbish(literally),etc. i have no idea when can i pack everything.lols. so damn lazy mans.24 hours is way not enough for me. dun tell me time management and all that crap, i know it damn well and its so cliched.
i need new eye candy seriously. school is such a bore nowadays, thats cos of the dumb holidays.urghs!
;9:47:00 PM
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
having a presentation tmr.damnit!
its supposed to be thu,but for some reasons,its pushed forward.and i barely started cos the draft i handed in earlier this week had some changes.the supervisor added more stuffs which leaves me clueless what is he talking.lol.but im actually reading blogs instead of doing my work.but i think im 90% done already.and the best part,its not gonna be graded and all.i see no point in doing this.really.there's hardly any motivation to make me wanna do a pretty good job.so tada!
i cant make up my mind if i shld be happy that tep is passing so fast.cos i dun seem to have enuf time for everything.i know everything boils down to time management.something which is easier said than done.cliched yet so true.5 and a half wks to go.
2nd day of a brand new week.occupying myself with endless work to not think of him so much.i think i did it,but like every few hrs,it comes down to the same thing.yea.he shld be back in less than 2 wks.so looking forward to it...=) somehow,i feel that this blog has changed.people who dont know me that well might think that... wah lau,this girl is so damn im-so-crazy-over-my-bf lah.haha.but im not k.i mean not tt im not into him or whatever.im merely stating what i feel. another cliched thing when it comes to blog.especially when one receives anon tags.whatever.
by the way,one of my friends left for melbourne.i din even know.i feel so damn guilty for not keeping in contact with her.sheesh...to think we were classmates for 3yrs, cca-mates for 4 damn yrs and neighbours for as long as we knew each other (cos we stay in the same neighbourhood). i dun even know.im such a lousy friend.sighs.
perhaps its time to start catching up like the good old times.pigging out, bitch-fit all the way, shopping till our legs give way or simply just chilling over a cup of coffee.yup.i missed it.
i pray to god hoping he is doing perfectly fine over there.i hope he knows that whenever he looks at the stars,i'll be looking at the same ones as well.
;11:04:00 PM
im so tired of school.
i hate being happy and all when im in sch, when many a time its all fake. neverending work, cos i spent my time playing ard rather than doing work.i spent my time surfing for things online rather than researching for my proj. haha.
feeling oh-so-stressed-up right now.therefore,im going to sleep now and start my brand new day tmr better (hopefully).and also start doin my work and all.
maybe its a good thing that my comp break down.cos i have more time to do other stuff at home and less time in sch for playing.haha.but i still think i prefer having my comp in working condition. -smiles
char:study hard kaes! not sure if can meet up this wk.see how k.call u again.=) thanks for ordering the papillio tho.
;12:05:00 AM
Sunday, September 04, 2005
ive got to keep this entry short.
ytd was fun.gym duty in the morning tho.5 pathetic customers in 4 hrs.actually tts good, leaves me more time to do crap stuff. haha! den rushed home to change. even tho i brought my clothes out, in the end, i wore a different set and i realised i din bring my belt out, so luckily i went home first. met malcolm at the usual (sgp is so mandane!), walked ard, had lunch, walked to ps to get my stuff, back to town, head to lido to check out sth!, met bevie!!!!!!!, went far east den to newton. haha.all was done in 4 hrs.grins...
anw,i went to ps to get my wwjd band.i was like SSSOOOOOO sore abt it when i broke mine, luckily jinghui told me where to get it.haha.so i went to check it out, tho they dun have the colorful one yet, i just bought the green one first to match my jacket and ring which i wore ytd. haha.
ohya.newton circus with eileen and jac.gossips and more! yeah...meet up often kaes! and we went crazy figuring out someone's identity huh?! grins... den head to town for more chilling out. oh yes! hopefully our party plan works out k! by the way, i seriously think it will only end up with the few of us... haha! but nvm la.
today was youth mass in church.apparently i forgot all abt it...lol.anyways, was watching the skit put up during the gospel. unknowingly, it brings back fond memories of me back in st mikes.and of course make me miss ahem even more.cos when i was in sec 4, my class had to put up a skit durinng gospel as well, i cant rmb the occasion la. we worked together, rehearsed together and got quite good response after that... the script is still with me.i miss those days... even tho my role in the skit was crap, just holding the board which says scene 1 kind of thing. i made that thing myself k.i actually took 3 hrs to do it,cos i wanted to make it perfect. i really measure the board,calculate how big shld the words be and stuff. haha! and of course ahem always make fun of me lah, about how i look like those girls in the rabbit dress. you know those with the bunny ears... yes.he made fun of me. and obviously everything was linked. so after remembering the skit, i remembered the camp... =) spiritual yet fun.
anyways,had some games after mass.i went home and just fell asleep.haha.tonight got to do some work already.my weekends just came and go.time passes SO fast k.i hardly got time to do my stuff.which reminds me tt i have loads of work to do.wish me luck.
looks like my entry wasnt THAT short afterall. lols.
;7:36:00 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
last night's prata was cancelled. wanted to join the guys instead. but chalven said it was cancelled as well, cos the guys want to go chinablack instead. haha! so i end up walking out of house alone even tho i got nowhere to go, i just felt like gg out cos it was my original plan but the prata date came in so i was alright with it. however,it wasnt tt bad.met vignesh again.we have no idea why but we always meet each other.and i really mean anywhere.from bishan, town, esplanade, suntec area to even the somerset mrt bus stop (which i dun usually take bus there). ya...we meet at all sorts of places, oh ya...i met him at zouk as well.haha! anw,he was with jeekeng, daph and zhihua.yup.the whitleyans unite huh.lols!
den chalven called and said the guys are not gg chinablack anymore, so they are meetin at the prata house at 12am.so damn late lah.i need to sleep by then... if not, i wun be awake now, typing away at the scholl gym.yes, im on duty this morning.goodness!
date with meiyan was cancelled as well.everything keeps changing.but im okay with it lah.so no worries k dear.we'll meet up after ur exams. =) i guess i'll meet malc instead den.if not, i'll just go home and take a rest before heading out for dinner.
im supposed to spend my day with ahem instead.cos its some special day. =) nvm.there'll be lots to come i hope.
;10:48:00 AM
Friday, September 02, 2005
my 2nd week of attachment in the gym finally ended.=) im happy as u can see.6 more weeks to go.yeah!
im seriously effing broke now,but im still buying things.temptation temptations.btw, char you're so right man.your birkies and my papillio definitely came at the wrong time,we are so so broke now huh.nvm.a few more days and we'll see our new stuffs.actually i still wan the cherry one! but u got it alr.sobs.haha!
its the third day already. -smiles
later tonight going for prata.yeah!its been ages since i ate it.haha! chalven! u shld come to casuarina instead...tts if u read this in time.haha.im going at 9plus i think.
tmr will be working in the gym from 9am to 1pm.its workout time.haha...den meeting meiyan for some bitching and catching up session.at night meeting my classmates for dinner along with jac!! haha.
my weekends are packed cos sun i need to stay home and do my presentation for next week.sighs.so many things to do,but so little time. so many things to buy,but so little money.