tis is so shitty man!!!i juz finish blogging and its gone!! coz i pressed on sth else again!!! fuck man...
anw,was saying decided to blog after like...an hr?? haha...btw,sorry peepz for wasting ur time coming to my blog and see nth posted... was working and getting lazy and all...u know...haha.
cant rmb much abt wat i typed earlier on...but its kind of long lor... arghhzz...!!! fuck up man!!
tmr is my long awaited off day man...nt tt i hate working but nid time to relax lar...esp nid time to go out wif him....been such a long long time since i wen out wif him...cant even rmb when...btw,tis lil msg is for sheena...free on fri nite?? leave a taggie on my blog to tell me kaez?? i miss u lots!!
was feeling down and all these few days...cant grap hold of the reason as well.. haiz...bad...miss my frens a whole lot...cldnt meet up wif alot of them... sobs...sorry...
hmm...was toking to charmaine during break juz now....miss her man!! been 2 weeks since i last went out wif her....sobs.her perfume is rotting at my place. haha....nid to meet up wif her real soon....
to mal:u know wat i gna say rite?? so take care ar.
yan:dun overwork k...muz take great care yea?hope u are okay le.... update me once in awhile ya...
to my dear jess!! i miss you!! pw sucks yea? wish i was dere to accompany u do tt bloody thing...haha.hope ming is doing fine...=) anw,caleb is still... ... haha.u know...fill in the blanks...take care! love you girl...
lil msg to steph...yup!he told me abt it as well...hope u had a great time at the camp...wish i was dere wif u tho...hope to haf another chance in da future...=)
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finally decided to blog after like wat....1 hr?? haha...anw,sorry peepz 4 wasting ur time coming to my blog and see nth posted...was working for the past 1 wk...was okay lar...gt nth to do dere lor...
anw,its my long awaited off day tmr!! i seriously nid tt man!! nt tt i hate goin to work but juz nid time to relax...and most imptly go out wif him.been such a long long time since i last went out wif him...cant even rmb at all...hehe...hope nth crops up tmr...pray for me!! kidding...
tink my cough and flu came back again...sheesh...bad...=( but watever it is... who cares? bleah...crapping again...
i miss my frens
;10:26:00 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
nt working today...wanted to ask him out,but dere's sum seminar thingy going on...so doubt so lar...hmm...sad.gt to wait till the next off day den... working is kind of fun lar...other than the journey there and back.hehe...anw,cant think of wat else to tok abt lerx...hmm...lemme tink/...
oh yar...had a weird dream ytd...dreamt tt i was on the train den i met glenn's dad and we started toking...den i was meeting my fren at the station so he accompany me to go look for my fren...haha...juz kind of weird lar...lols...
to eebing:dun tink i can plan the outing lerx...got work.den might nt be able to go out in dec oso...unless its on my off day lor...keep u informed again k.... ask zhihao to plan k.coz he pang seh eric the other day den make him the only guy dere...haha.
;12:01:00 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
i feel as if im losing all my friends now...
wad a bad feeling man...
when i aint feeling good right frm the beginning...
dunno why but juz tink tt my friends are leaving me one by one...
hate this man...can sumone juz take tt stupid feeling away?
or am i really losing them?? tts y im having tt feeling?
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anw,ytd was the first day at work....
was kind of fun.din feel tired at all other than the journey back hm...
thanks dearie for wantin to accompany me hm...
but i can always do tt myself...
im a grown-up girl lerx....=)
haha...tink mum gna cook the yummy yummy chilli crabs on sat...
hope i can eat it...
hmm....dunno which day shld i get off...haiz....
hate makin decisions...sheesh...
;10:16:00 AM
Friday, October 17, 2003
its been such a long time since i blog...hmm...its update time again.
MONDAY went over to his place in the evening.awaiting for ppl to fetch us to the chalet. so i tink its tis guy called weiting,his mum fetching us la.so we took bus over to his place,den another guy call kenneth was oso dere.so we were all in the car.reached dere at abt 10 i tink.his classmates were dere la.angela,swee kee,ley hong,joshua,sean...nt sure if dere's more,cant rmb tt clearly.went out to the beach 4 a walk.angela joined me.the wind was nice man...was playing wif the cat as well...heez...den me and him walked over to the 7-11...which is dunno how many thousand miles away.haha...wonderful time spent dere...
TUESDAY cant rmb much...but those ppl tt know wat happened,shld know y i dun wan write much abt it...anw,played beach volleyball,beach soccer and frisbee... was okay la.glenn and weiting went dwn to the water to play i tink.god knows wat they doin dere...haha...had bbq at nite...ate 3 hotdogs,1 marshmallow and 1 crabstick...kind of pathetic rite.but wasnt in teh mood...anw,the part i liked most was the celebrating of shaoqing,veron and angela's bday.the cherries on the cake looked damn tempting man...cant wait to lay my hands on it.den they started havin sum "cake war"...throwing the precious cake ard.everybody ran out of the hse other than me to avoid shaoqing...so i quickly ran dwn to take the cherries.haha.and i ate like 8 cherries when i tink dere's only 10 on it lor.yummy...anw,not gna elaborate on wat happened ltr...other than he's sick...
WEDNESDAY tink he's very sick,so we din go out the whole day...no no no...i tink its him who nv go out.i went out quite a few times to take a stroll...the ltr part was bad bad bad...nt gna elaborate again...and dun ask me as well...his dad came to fetch us hm...was a scary trip man...haha...had nose bleeding when i reached hm lor.bad...but was kind of calm la...
THURSDAY went to meet bev in teh morning to go back our sec sch to do sth...den went on to goin yan's place for a while.met lala and yunx to go to town...met sheena and jocelyn as well...they wanna go on a shopping spree...but we spent the earlier times eating and walking ard aimlessly coz cant find the stuff we wants...went taka,wisma,far east,hereen....in the end yan,lala,yunx and me bought sth...haha...i bought sth frm mambo...cost 99...bleah.cant buy anymore lerx.was deciding on which to buy...the other is 69...lucky sheena went to take tt for me to try on...thanks!! went to take neo prints again... oh yar...caroline and mal came to join us in e middle oso...heez...wasnt feeling tt well oredie...so went hm earlier...my back hurts like hell in the train lor...almost cried man...den went hm and found out tt i gt fever! gosh...anw,took some panadols and tried goin to slp...sis want the fan so cldnt switch it off.was damn cold so i took my temp again.it went up again...so i went the other rm to slp.woke up like an hr ltr....and my temp reached 39.8...was crying den...called a lot of ppl but they din on their phone.but lucky KM on his and pick up the call.thanks!! told my sis and she said go take panadol and slp. still cldnt fall aslp...haiz...mum woke up and put sum cold towel on my head... the temp den went dwn...
FRIDAY wanted to go to work after seeing the doc...but the doc says cannot coz i'll pass the fever and cough to others...so gave me 3 days MC...haiz...went hm and called the ppl to say i cant go to work....so in the end starting work on mon....
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Monday, October 13, 2003
at hm uploading photos now...haha...wonder how's his last paper le. anw,muz still rmb to check out my blog frequently kaez?!
ciao...muack to everyone!! love ya peepz!
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Sunday, October 12, 2003
a short update...
SATURDAY went to char's place...met her at the train station 1st.den went to buy some food hm.walked past edo sushi and felt like eatin chawan mushi...and she wanna eat the ice cream...so we ended up inside eating sushi and stuff... haha. den went to her place which was in a mess man...coz she's moving out...den went thru her collections of bags...its crazy man...she got like 3 cartons full of all sorts of bags lor.and her cupboard is full as well...woah... took 2 mambo bags and others... bwahaha....since she taken sum of my bags as well... her mum wanted to gif me sth for me to do facial at hm,but i dun wan.too lazy la. den char helped me tink wat to bring to the chalet...blar blar... and stupid lester chia!!!! u cheated us...we're supposed to eat chilli crabs lor... and u pang seh us...u owe us one k.haha... anw,we ended up eating at han's... yummy yummy...char paid 4 everything tt day... haha.
SUNDAY went to church as usual...on my hp and realised tt joel called me...dunno y he called oso...had a short walk at bugis...den dad fetched me and mum to relative place...dav:u shld know whr i go rite? haha.... back to topic...after tt went hm and slp...*yawnz* goin 4 chalet tmr...so wun be blogging for a few days...
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Friday, October 10, 2003
i've juz managed to upload sum photos...*happy* the link is at the side bar dere...
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the diff emotions inside me is starting to build up...brk down once again ytd. anw,beginnin 2 thinkif i shld go to the chalet anot.haiz... feel kind of odd,tho he says the acjc girl goin as well...but the prob is i dunno her.haha... shall tink abt it again den... hmm...any idea or suggestions?? sms 1,2 or 3 to my hp... 1 is go. 2 is dun go. 3 is stay out. haha...kidding..
hmm...hope i wun brk down again.its quite irritating i guess...haiz.gna spoil my day again...=( but watever it is...dun care le la... anw,havin problems uploading the photos...sad.so cannot post the photos yet... but hope to be done wif it soon la.
to steph... we'll definitely meet each other again on next yr's maundy thurs.. i believe.... we're fated to see each other man... and charmaine will be here too!! the world is juz too small...=) stay happy always.gd luck for rajoo and econs paper next week. jia you!! luv ya...
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Thursday, October 09, 2003
was watchin holland V juz now.juz feel so angry wif sum guys lor!fuck you man...i believe tt tis happens in reality,so gna tell tell u tt u dun marry ur wife so tt she can serve u.dun expect them to bring hm the bacon.come on la,we r livin in s'pore lor.we nid double income to survive.was boiling inside juz now lor!!! arghzz!! sum guys juz cant think.
anw,met a lot of ppl juz now.went to j8 to help my sis change sth,on the way dere,saw grace...den i saw tis cute aj girl....hehe..hmm...tink i having lesbian tendency le.oops!! haha.anw,took a bus dwn to town.meet yan,yunx,jess,lala and clara at far east chicken rice.b4 tt,saw glenn at bk so went dwn to say hi. hehe.tink tt was a bad move...coz now im starting to think if i shld go 4 his class chalet.haiz.but if im nt goin,i wun be at hm either.gna stay out i tink. back to topic,saw caleb,justin and lester at bk as well...
so while we were eating,saw valarie,nicholas and other cac peepz.bad... went off den i saw BEV!! so happy!! dunno gave her how many hugs.hehe.she said tt the paper was quite bad lor.haiz.den she was like i might be joining you lor... sobs.den the 6 of us went to take neo prints! a new machine.very fun! yan and yunx went to change money.den the me,jess,clara and lala were playing inside.jess and clara started actin as if they were kissing.so funny man.lala and i laugh like siao.had lots of fun in dere man...den clara and jess go hm le.
so we decided to go to hereen to take more pics.haha.was behavin like crazy peepz along the way...lucky im nt in cj uni.if not,bro paul will announce tt "the public seen 4 cj girls behaving like crazy monkeys along orchard rd..." haha. den the machine we took pic in was scary lor.the music juz make my hair stand man...Eerie... but it was fun!! so we were on our way to cine at da traffic light,we as usual were laughing at jokes la.den was telling yan abt the yunx and the part time model thingy and i burst into laughters.coz i saw mal across the road...
anw,we went to the bowling alley dere to slack.was havin fun dere again! mal's phone is definitely the "COOLEST" gadget i've ever seen.bwahahaha... den they all goin hm le,so i went off to meet dav.pop by crepes and creme...had ice cream and fries dere.yummy yummy... chatted for quite sum time... left and started roaming ard.decided to go to my workplace to take a look.was okay la.hehe....den took train hm lerx...dav:u better tell me tt secret of urs soon.if nt,ill go try every means and ways to find out... haha...
tis last msg is for the fuckers out there...if u know u shldnt be reading my blog den pls fuck off...see...im still so polite to u fuckers,im using the word "please"... those fuckers include ppl u know i dun like you at all! pls fuck off my blog...thanks!
;8:14:00 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
im gna officially start work on the 17th tis month... which is exactly one week from now...hmm...really wanna enjoy tis last wk but everybody havin promos.. haiz.spoil my plan.but nonetheless,still goin out wif glenn on mon and tues...i tink so la.hehe.anw,will be working at forum.its town lor! den when its pay day,can ask char out to go shopping... haha.tis is fun man! cant wait to start work lor.supposed to start tis week,but bcoz of my dear...changed the date lor...see dear.u better treat me nicer hor.hehe... wanna go out wif yan tmr...shall msg her ltr den.=) scanned some photos juz now...den i was scanning the one i took wif maple,the program got problem,den got to shut down... haha...so coincidental lor.muz be bcoz thhe computer knows tt i takin photo wif frog,so purposely give me problems...haha. kidding...
dearie!! xiang si ni le... jia you!
;7:17:00 PM
still a lil upset abt ytd...haiz...dunno y oso.its raining as usual... wonder y everytime it rains,human beings will start missing each other.or is it juz me? dunno la.can only hear the rain outside and my typing on the keyboard... but my mind juz wanders off...the loneliness is overwhelming me man... cant stand it! old memories juz continue to flood tt lil brain of mine... haiz... hmm...
anw,hope tt he can do well for his paper.=)
yan:jia you k! study hard during the weekend for hist and econs.u still haf econs paper1 and 2 to help u.dun worry k?=)
mal:stay focused yea? dun worry too much.maybe tts y u were stressed up...
yunx and jess:continue to mug hard! u can do it wan... love ya lotS!!
dav:stop playing cards le la...ask shaun to study and dun tink of feli... and u oso dun tink of hy...=)
to yupei and meiting...i miss NaCli...the wonderful times we spent dere...cant forget bt it lor.tho its been almost 2 yrs oredie...6 girls 4 guys... and we bunk in the same dorm tho we were allocated to diff dorms.still rmb how i went crazy over tt someone.jeremy wif tt "penetrating eyes",cant figure out whr he's lookin.shu wen not letting me slp on da last nite,takin away all my blanket and pillows...coreen always making me and pooi laugh like siao,esp the cooking competition abt the potato thingy.still rmb how me and coreen planned to make fun of them...aaron and pooi always go up the stage as couple coz the grp sabo them...the bpgh girl who yt likes..either meiting or yingmei or both wif the "se lang" in their grps...those fun games we played in the 1st day.esp the one wif the rope den muz swing all the way to the middle of the pond.tho the route frm the hall to the dorms was so far,wif all the fun ppl like shuwen they all makes the route seemed so short.the hike up the dunno wat hill was cool,esp when it rain all of a sudden and i dunno how to open the ponchu...u all had to help me wif it...
alvin and his grp were singing and the girl was practically lying on top of alvin,and we were like "Eeeee....!!!" so funny...and many many more...the 6 days dere sounds long but its packed wif activities,so it doesnt really seemed tt long in the end...
we even wanted a NaCli reunion last yr rite?but nobody plan it.so it failed ultimately...shuwen,jeremy,fadzli they all came back for our investiture...and was so nice lor.and i was so crazy tt i told the com i wan to attend anderson's invest...in the end went wif kim kee and dehui.theirs was nice man...wif dance in btw.//recalling tt scene...// tt time was so crazy lor... i even went for their sec1 orientation.but it ws fun lor...went out for lunch wif them oso.becoz of tt got to know more ppl... like chong tak who acted in channel U.den i kp makin fun of him...tink kk will rmb it.haha.
;12:21:00 PM
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
im really all down and depressed now...juz read a lil of steph and adel blogs...sorry adel:nv ask 4 ur permission.anw,really felt so bad lor.sorry steph for not being dere for u when u needed someone.ya,i know u haf other frenz but dun forget tt i'll always be here kae...u've been a really great great fren!! always comforting me and helping me...and wat am i doing here...leading a happy life when my fren needs me...dun forget tt im always available.we might not be the bestest friends.but u can always count on me yea? love ya!!
to bevie...nice to see ur reply.i miss you lots man!! take great care k? we'll meet up for lunchie soon rite...ur hugs have been my comfort thru out the months i spent in cj.love ya babe!
to xiaomei(sera)...know u wun be reading this...but still i really wanna tell u tt we haven meet up for months and months le...partly coz im lazy la...but still i haven forgotten u...u've been my closest fren thru out the last 3 yrs in whitley.still rem the times when we were over the phone wif each other.... complete silence other than the occasional humming of songs...its really great.
for a moment...i miss many of my frenz... aimee,thiam peng,kelv,jason, chunming,huizhen,yupei,zhenyang...etc... u ppl haf really been great frenz of mine thru out my sec sch life...
eebing,sinyee,grace,jan,jac,lanyan,marion,eric,zhihao,melvin,kianhuat....we've been frenz for like more than 8 yrs oredie.tho we still meet up almost every holidays,but the times spent wif u guys haf always been great...wif all the catching up and all...its really nice.u all haf moulded me into the "me" now...
to everybody who's reading this...juz know tt i still love you peepz... life will definitely not be the same without you all...
its been so long since i last break down...thanks steph for making me realised tt i've such great ppl in my life...
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i juz created a temporary template....so u peepz can continue to read my blog.coz this temp not very nice...so gna change it when my dear yunx is free to help me...so i guess this temp is gna be here for another one week plus... bear wif it...haha.
anw,went out to buy sth for a while...saw kenneth soo on the way...was deciding if i shld say hi to him...and realised tt if i dun,den i'll be like quite rude lor...so said hi to him in the end...but i tink quite alot of ppl dun like him lor.heard tt frm someone... haha...
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im so angry wif the blog...dunno wats wrong lor.arghzz...hope tt yunx will be free soon to help me repair it...i miss him alot...starting work soon i guess...so i doubt i can go 4 his class chalet...but will try to start work mid of next week la.so can accompany him 4 the first few days of the chalet... not sure oso la.wanted to ask him go for a jog this morning...but realised tt sufficient sleep is impt to him...so din tell him ytd nite...dun wan him to wake up early in the morning juz to go for a jog...tho exercise is impt... and wtf...i haven been exercising for 1 mth plus...*cringe*
feel like eatin sum jap food now.-grins- but gt to save money.tryin nt to spend money unnecessarily...it is virtue lor.haha...*beams*
hmm...realised tt i haven buy char's pressie yet.which was like due abt a mth ago...still owe her a 599 levi's jeans....haiz...and gt to pay 4 the perfume i ordered...*sheesh* but char's pressie can wait la...haha.she nt in nid oso lor...anw,might be going malaysia in dec...wif the church peepz.really wanna go lor.but dunno can anot.-sobs-
gna stop here...still sad and angry over the blog.bleah... love u peepz!
to my dearest glenn...dunno if u'll see this in time for ur exams... but nonetheless...still gna wish u best of luck kae...dun worry abt me.we'll go out and spend sum quality time together k? hope tt my job wun take up all my energy to go out wif you...hehe.eh...plus ur lil sis is still so cute!! the same as the last time i saw her...haha...love her too!! *muackies*
;10:15:00 AM
Monday, October 06, 2003
a lil update on ytd...yan msged me and said tt she missed me!! haha...was so happy 2 receive her msg.coz the next day was hist paper le.anw,she rmb me while she was readin thru Italy's Unification...the part on the terms of the treaty of villafranca and pact of plombieres...anw,i believe tt she'll rmb those terms 4 a long time lor...haha.wif me ard to remind her of it.hehe.anw,i discovered sth...b4 history exams,i'll sort of tok 2 her da day b4...haha.still rmb the CTs,called her 2 ask sth abt hist...and ended up toking...hehe=) anw,peepz! rmb to tell me how's the paper k?! i 1 to know how cheem jy set the paper...
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back to 2day...went over to glenn's place.wanted 2 see piglet...his sis.lil cutie. haha.anw,his dad was at hm la...but nvm.din tok to him much...he was supposed to be studying chi la...but lazy him juz too lazy le...haha.anw,he's a LUCKY (mal:do u get it? haha.) guy man...coz his papers only start on wed and its ending on mon.start late end early...anw,went hm at abt 7 i tink. din stay 4 dinner...scared...haha...=)
btw,i've got a job...its selling children's wear...haha.hope the kids wun be afraid of me.anw,the brand is levi's kid,classic pooh and osh gosh bgosh.(dunno how to spell tt lar) haha.i guess i'll be startin work soon...so i nt sure if i can go out wif you all after ur promos...but if possible,i can always go out after my work la...hope it dun ends too late.sorry ar ppl...know i've promised u guys le,but i wun 4get u all k...will definitely meet up wif u all k...
;8:10:00 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2003
sis told me tt she saw joel ytd...so i guess tts the reason he nt in church 2day..tink he was serving ytd's mass...anw,char mum told me in the morning tt she still slping at hm..den i went like confirm wan lar... so i met he after mass...walk over to bras basah food court to buy drinks.adrian,nevan,alex and they all were eatin dere lor.yucks! dun like to see some of them.anw,char bought ice lemon tea 4 me.my all-time fav drink when im out wif her.tok to god-pa 4 a while...den char's mum walk past...so we accompanied her to the mac toilet across da road.she told me dun spray too much perfume.bad 4 the lungs esp if u kp smellin it.
anw,walk over to bugis to lk for perfume.den settle down @ mos for a drink and chat session.stayed dere for quite sum time lor.den decided to go millenia walk.walk from bugis to dere lor.tired man...saw a nice pair of adidas shorts dere,but dun haf the size i wan,so we went to marina.however,char reserved the other piece for herself la.luckily marina haf my size,so we asked the person for 2,but only left one...so we were like huh...? tis means tt we haf to go all the way back to millenia walk to get the reserved piece...
our legs were too tired frm all the walking...so went to a small cafe to rest.. chatted for quite sum time again.haha.tok abt marcus and the gf...marcus so flirt lor..but dunno y let the girl take advantage of him...basically coz he's damn rich.dad owned the shop call 'FURLA' and got shares in capital optical. dunno how to spell it lar.but the mum very nice...
so...we walked back to millenia walk 2 get the shorts.tired man...den back to suntec for a walk...haiz...after tt,went to citylink coz got to go hm le.oh btw... saw jee keng at bugis lor...he working at MUJI...haha.anw,i oso dun really know him lor.. tink tts abt it lor...had maggie mee for dinner juz now...too lazy to go out eat.cant 4get abt the chilli crab ytd...=)
hmm...cant wait for his promos to be over...hehe.hope to spend some nice time wif him after tt...=)
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Saturday, October 04, 2003
trying to create a website to put my photos... but its still in construction la.me being computer idiot,dunno how to do it...haha...but dun worry,will tell u all once its completed...hehe...look out for it kae!promos are like in a FEW days only... getting worried for them lor...hope they all do well. good luck to u peepz! anw,wendy only got into the top 10 of the supermodels... which was damn cool lor.wish i was on the stage...haha.*bleah* i haf stage fright lor...so better not... haha.i want to be taller!! my height now is like not tall not short... so irritating!! arghhzz... wish i had more computer knowledge...so i wun be having trouble now. have lots of photos to upload...*happy happy* juz realised tt i took a lot of photos in cj lor.its a thick stack man... me and yan is forever taking photos wan lor...even when the chi tcher is teaching...haha.so u can imagine how much the t'cher hate me oredie.bwahaha...and we're always taking it by ourselves lor...as in one person will hold den we'll try to squeeze inta picture.its so funny lor.den yupei will start "complaining" why i always bring cam to sch....heez.=)
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my mom juz cooked chilli crab....its damn damn nice!!!! u cant imagine how nice it is unless u taste it..really..its damn DELICIOUS, SCRUMPTIOUS, YUMMY....cant tink of other words oredie..hehe...anw,i can get discount for perfumes...so if anybody wants,juz tell me k.den i see haf anot...its quite cheap...but u got to tell me by mon...too bad lar...coz everybody muz be mugging like hell now...not blogging...
was msging him in the evening lar...he's at his fren house studying... but obviously wif 6 ppl ard...it gets hard to stay focus...haha...anw,i really wanna watch underworld!! it looks like a nice show lor... haiz... hmm...going wif char tmr...hehe.been 2 weeks since i last went out wif her lor.wonder wat we gna do tmr.hehe...looking forward.
;9:58:00 AM
Friday, October 03, 2003
today's my 6th month wif glenn le.*happy happy* hehe.anw,managed to meet up wif him today oso.he said he goin kap to study...so join him dere as well lor.since dav goin oso...anw,reach dere and his classmates were dere lar.got alvin,angela,veron,sean...these r the few i rmb the names.the rest cant really rmb le.haha.anw,was watching them study...since i gt nth to do... dav msg me says the bitch is goin oso...but who cares lar.reuben and fren were oso studyin.its damn crowded lor.might be a gd place to study if its not so crowded la.
anw,dav and shaun came...went over 2 tok 2 them a while.was readin my mg in the meanwhile lar...towards the end,was very bored...so pop over to shaun's table again.and poh han came along...den dav's classmate,yulian and fren came...so shaun and poh han went hm...anw,not 4getting tt me and glenn saw bernadette as well..as usual lar,she ask abt sch.so me and glenn keep havin eye contact..coz dunno how to say i withdraw le.haha.btw,she's quite pretty now.in acjc...but the eyes are still quite small...hmm...doesnt it sound like somebody we all know? haha...
went hm at 6plus...was very tired.so he gt to help me carry my mag...which is damn heavy at tt time la.coz i was energy-less... haha.took a bus to mac ritchie.den change 2 another bus hm...always like goin home wif him... always got tt nice feeling..heez...=) thanks darl...
keep telling myself tt i gt to eat less...and abstain frm fried food and coke for one week.but din managed to do it la.quite disappointing... low self-control. haiz.*cringe* im not gna exercise till i haf the determination to continue exercising...dun wan to exercise for 1 day den rest for a wk...so somebody pls help me....haha....
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Thursday, October 02, 2003
today was okay...lucky me.anw,finally received the call from levi's... went for the interview juz now.the lady was quite nice lar.but den still not confirm yet. they will call me again soon...anw,hope to get the job lor.cos i wanna get discount frm levi's...its 40% lor.i tink so lar.coz my fren workin dere...haha...hmm...even if i work dere,doubt i can buy much oso lor.haf like 5 pairs at home at home oredie lor.hehe.but watever lar...
went to watch infernal affairs 2 wif KM..*nice nice* u ppl shld watch tt too! anw,i wanna watch underworld as well.tink its abt werewolfs or sth lidat la. den dav msg me say he goin kap to study...he ar...very funny lor.when i ask other ppl out le,den he tell me he goin kap.anw,din join him after my movie oso.hehe.very lazy...he was right in calling me lazy bum lar... tink i joining him tmr lor...dun wanna stay at hm.it kinds build up the loneliness inside me... den when im at hm for a long time...my mood swings start appearing again. anw,tts juz my guess lar.maybe its due to other stuff.but watever la.maybe i suffering from schizophrenia...haha.
miss my dear alot...hmm...another one more week to go.haiz.tis is killing me man...dun like this! anw,if i ever regret quitting college...the 1st thing will becoz of him.it kind of sucks lor...cant see him all the time...haiz...but anw,a nice guy afterall...=)
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Wednesday, October 01, 2003
hey peepz!tis is gna be a rather long entry i tink.(so u can always skip tis.haha)
anw,to start it off,went to attend a talk ytd on "Anger Management".was a nice one.hehe.i tink glenn was quite glad i attended it.haha...okok...reach dere at 7plus..went in den nevan came along...nes,nel,aunty chris and aunty agatha was late.as usual.haha.anw,saw joel's parents oso...memories start coming back.so a short while,cldnt concentrate on the talk.a lil update on him...knew him for < a yr...a nice guy overall.he was the 1 who tempt me the most to try smoking.oh yar,he's like 2 yrs younger lor.his dad look a lil fierce and mum is a t'cher...anw,shall stop tokin abt it anymore...
so here's juz a few pts tt i rmb frm ytd's talk....
* anger can either be expressed or repressed..
* if it is repressed,it can be either destructive or constructive.
* we nid to learn how to contain it(expressed) and release it(repressed).
* emotions are good...even if its jealousy,anger,...
* it's alrite 2 be jealous so long as we don't act on it.
* anger is juz secondary emotion...eg.u conduct a meetin for 50ppl,but only
10 turn up,u definitely feel angry,but its secondary,coz the primary emotion
is concerning ur pride and ego...
* dere's no way we can forget our anger...it'll still be rooted in our hearts.
we can only forgive and not forget...bcoz we are created wif a memory...
* it is more impt to find the root of anger than argue on who is correct...
* only when we are fully alive wif emotions den are we fully human...
okok.enuf of tt...so maybe we can set aside some time and reflect on it.dere are different ways to express anger...such as shouting out loud coz u cant scold the person who made u angry...twist a towel using all ur strength coz u cant punch tt person in the face...
anw,the talk ended at 10pm...said bye to joel's parents.den went hm wif sis... hmm...it definitely got me to start tinkin abt myself...=)
newae...i tink im kind of mean in the past lor.now still lar...but nt as much. tok to KM the other day,sort of came up wif a conclusion...for a couple...wld u rather choose to quarrel wif ur partner or let him/her says sth hurtful (eg.i cannot really forget abt my past wif other gfs/bfs...) i guess many of us will choose the former...but haf u ever thot of it as when ur partner says sth hurtful...it's all bcoz of tis powerful word called love...but when u quarrel... it tends to imply tt u two haf different characters.anw,the last part is from me...
okay...shall stop all that shit...it's all shit kae...haha.anw,tink i'll be going back cj later...for the cai fan lunch.hehe.nice to meet them and they start updating me abt happenings in college...love that!! almost forgot tt that day when i was msgin desmond...he says tt cj is very fun compared to poly.even tho he's like only dere for a couple of months lor.so can sort of imagine he get along wif ppl quite well dere...and wat abt me...when i was in cj for a couple of mths, i dun tink i haf tt much frenz lor.juz floating ard everywhere...but after CTs... its the best time.got closer to a few ppl like yan,jess,sheena...and yunx... know u for only like a couple of mths and u really brighten up my day thru all ur running into classes cop-ing food...hehe.miss school lerx...i tink i used to be jumping ard everywhere i go...coz when i read ppl's blog.they always seemed to describe me as jumpin lor.anw,glad tt i jumped my way and got to know all of you peepz! haha.wad crap is that...=)
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juz as i thot my day was goin on smoothly,my most dreaded nightmare came...my mood swings....it really sucks lor....it gets damn bad at times..its like a huge wave of emotions overwhelming me...cant seem to handle it.wonder if i nid to see some psychiatrist and get some medication... arghz! dun like this man... it juz spoil my day! hate this! hate this! hate this! Fuck man!! tis is the one thing tt i hate most! seriously tink i nid sum medication now,to stop all this nonsense...watever shit.....Fuck!
anw,miss him alot alot now...sorry dear abt wat happened in the afternoon... thanks for being dere k...but dun worry,ill be alrite...juz be all ur focus on ur promos k....love ya real lots! miss ur hugs lerx...=)
btw,din go back to cj today....coz my jess dearie is sick...*gasp* take great care k dear! are u still gna pon 4 the rest of the week? hehe...anw,i love you deary....*muakies*